Peanuts "Karma"

leave me in spring. The only three women I have ever really loved. One more thing what they all have in common. They did never really stand by me.

But is not that what true love is all about? It is easy to say I love you in good times.

Ok maybe it is better when it happens now than after some years. Oh that would hurts when you recognize that the only reason why your girl is staying with you because you gave her a good time.

Oh bad thing that life is more than having a good time...

So I fought 8 months against my greatest weakness my longing for having someone close to me. No day passed by without longing for you. But I accepted not to see you. It was a forbidden love.

Then in one short time.I got sick and I got weak. I felt so lonely.I needed you. But you was not here. No warm words, no I love you...
In this time when I was too weak to fight, when I lost myself, when I needed you most, when you should stand by me.I make one big mistake. I did a wrong decision. I left you. In my weakness I was looking for someone else to be close with. But I was still loving you. I always do.

Haven't I proved my love to you so many times?!
Haven't I make you so many times happy?!
Isn't that all worth to forgive me this one time?

How could you ever think having a future with me, when you neither can stand this? Did you really believe that I could make you always happy? How should I when I could get deadly sick, or get poor or having a bad fight.There will be bad times. Would you leave me then because I couldnt make you happy anymore?
I told you I will leave you when I am making you unhappy.That's right, I am keeping my words.I did it.But do you want to know the right answer to this. From someone who truely loves?

"I love you I will stand by you."

But you didnt...